Archive for January, 2009

Training Profile
Subject Id: 0927.11
Session Id: 5938

Stats

  • Age: 28
  • Sign: Taurus
  • Measurements: 34C – 26 – 36
  • Breasts: real
  • Status: unowned

History

  • 3.5 years exp.
  • Limited lifestyle experience
  • started to girl to experience BDSM

Likes

  • Ropes: “the raw-er the better…”, suspensions
  • duct tape.. oh duct tape. the smell puts me into sub space build ups to heavy thudy floggers

  • “the grip of a man of my flesh”
  • animal play, breath play, clamps, blindfolds, hair pulling
  • “i enjoy to get slapped in the face”
  • probing man hands as i’m tied up and totally helpless
  • enjoys crying

Dislikes

  • neglect / silence

Strengths

  • excellent cocksucker
  • naturally sensual presence
  • good track record of pain and stress tolerance

Weaknesses

  • endurance

Fears

  • let’s find out
Limits

  • cattle prod
  • tazer
  • names (degrading or humiliating ie: stupid, retard. Large animals: pig, cow etc… )

Pain Management Skills

  • “i used to be a pretty hard core masochist, but i’m not sure where my tolerance is any more”

Marking

  • liberal policy with 2 week window for healing

Sexuality

  • overtly sensuous

Climax

  • suffers mild de-sensitization due to heavy vibrator use

Masturbation

  • tends to over-stimulate herself

Fucking

  • weak endurance, needs work on thigh strength

Sucking

  • exceptional with good deep throat skills

Quotes

  • “I really love being the “good girl”.”
  • “Being put into a predicament and proving to my sir that i am worthy of his sadistic touch”
  • “i enjoy being told what to do and enjoy pleasing my sir and will try with all my might to make sure i do.”







Training Profile
Subject Id: 0927.11
Session Id: 5938

Stats

  • Age: 28
  • Sign: Taurus
  • Measurements: 34C – 26 – 36
  • Breasts: real
  • Status: unowned

History

  • 3.5 years exp.
  • Limited lifestyle experience
  • started to model to experience BDSM

Likes

  • Ropes: “the raw-er the better…”, suspensions
  • duct tape.. oh duct tape. the smell puts me into sub space build ups to heavy thudy floggers

  • “the grip of a man of my flesh”
  • animal play, breath play, clamps, blindfolds, hair pulling
  • “i love to get slapped in the face”
  • probing man hands as i’m tied up and totally helpless
  • enjoys crying

Dislikes

  • neglect / silence

Strengths

  • excellent cocksucker
  • naturally sensual presence
  • good track record of pain and stress tolerance

Weaknesses

  • endurance

Fears

  • let’s find out
Limits

  • cattle prod
  • tazer
  • names (degrading or humiliating ie: stupid, retard. Large animals: pig, cow etc… )

Pain Management Skills

  • “i used to be a pretty hard core masochist, but i’m not sure where my tolerance is any more”

Marking

  • liberal policy with 2 week window for healing

Sexuality

  • overtly sensuous

Orgasm

  • suffers mild de-sensitization due to heavy vibrator use

Masturbation

  • tends to over-stimulate herself

Bumping

  • weak endurance, needs work on thigh strength

Sucking

  • exceptional with good deep throat skills

Quotes

  • “I really love being the “good girl”.”
  • “Being put into a predicament and proving to my sir that i am worthy of his sadistic touch”
  • “i enjoy being told what to do and like pleasing my sir and will try with all my might to make sure i do.”







Day Four








Trainer’s Report
Subject Id: #178
Session Id: #5364

Case Review

  • Re-state the Hypothesis: Subject starts in BDSM at a young age, operates in a singular ego state of uncertainty and acquiescence. Not to be confused with submission, this meek attitude serves as the vehicle for explorations in BDSM and slavehood.
  • Evolving conditions positively influence growth into an Adult state of appropriate assertiveness and control over her decisions.
  • Submission, however, becomes distant due to it’s persistent association with the former Child ego-state. Meek means weak, and submission is tied to this former helpless state. Efforts to dominate her met with psychological reactance resulting in confusion, resistance, and inner fight.

Supporting Evidence

  • Easier to engage in power games with strangers than with those more familiar.
  • Discussions uncover a resonance with the principles of reactance
  • Behavior suggest Erikson’s ‘identity crisis’: “people experience an identity crisis when they lose a sense of personal sameness and historical continuity”.
  • Socialization is lacking from subject’s BDSM development. Seemingly, subject closes herself off to stimulus relating to kink by using blocking statements
  • When asked about community involvement, response cites ‘no parties are doing what I’m into.
  • ‘When asked about favorite genre fiction, response indicates low interest due to poor writing skills among genre authors.

Training Goals

  • Identity: explore the PAC chick of ego states.
  • Eroticize Pain: practical techniques
  • Posture through Pain: balance

Rule Set

  • 1. Sir, thank you Sir.
  • 2. control nervous laughter
  • 3. Climax ONLY when in pain
  • 4. Head and eye alignment
Re-State Rule #4

  • Wager her accumulated demerits against her mouth stuffed in an asshole + 50 cane strokes: can she maintain balance for more than a few seconds?

Lesson Review

  • A hard whipping by the master sets up the lesson.
  • Cane her breast to solicit reflections on the principles of the hypothesis, identity, reactance, and past associations of submission.

Review By Committee

  • Social anthropologist Gayle Rubins co-founded the historic Samois group and fought the Feminist Sex Wars of the 80’s to defend the right to engage in the very activity our subject is now thoroughly enjoying. Role bitch?

Job Interview, Pt 1

  • Toilet Attendant, butt eating and piss play
  • Collect on the debt and prize Madison’s participation with 5 minutes of 178’s tongue up her butt.
  • Assess this applicant’s potential for satisfying the most copious pissers in the building and a possible future with the House.

Self Assessment Under Duress

  • How far can one push themself?
  • Are you giving yourself as a commodity to use?
  • An entity of slavehood: number 178.
  • Identify this commodity: what are you, who are you? How can you give it up if you don’t know what it is?

  • Without identity we have confusion, turmoil and pain: where you are now.
  • Every seven years we grow, do we give it up or adapt?

Assignment

  • Write a user’s manual:
  • what works, what does not work, what you are good at, where your weaknesses lie. A blueprint of what 178 is.







Trainer’s Report
Subject Id: #178
Session Id: #5364

Case Review

  • Re-state the Hypothesis: Subject starts in BDSM at a young age, operates in a singular ego state of uncertainty and acquiescence. Not to be confused with submission, this meek mood serves as the vehicle for explorations in BDSM and slavehood.
  • Evolving conditions positively influence growth into an Adult state of appropriate assertiveness and control over her decisions.
  • Submission, however, becomes distant due to it’s persistent association with the former Child ego-state. Meek means weak, and submission is tied to this former helpless state. Efforts to dominate her met with psychological reactance resulting in confusion, resistance, and inner struggle.

Supporting Evidence

  • Easier to engage in intensity games with strangers than with those more familiar.
  • Discussions uncover a resonance with the principles of reactance
  • Behavior suggest Erikson’s ‘identity crisis’: “people experience an identity crisis when they lose a sense of personal sameness and historical continuity”.
  • Socialization is lacking from subject’s BDSM development. Seemingly, subject closes herself off to stimulus relating to kink by using blocking statements
  • When asked about community involvement, response cites ‘no parties are doing what I’m into.
  • ‘When asked about favorite genre fiction, response indicates low interest due to poor writing skills among genre authors.

Training Goals

  • Identity: explore the PAC slut of ego states.
  • Eroticize Pain: practical techniques
  • Posture through Pain: balance

Rule Set

  • 1. Sir, thank you Sir.
  • 2. control nervous laughter
  • 3. Climax ONLY when in pain
  • 4. Head and eye alignment
Re-State Rule #4

  • Wager her accumulated demerits against her mouth stuffed in an asshole + 50 cane strokes: can she maintain balance for more than a few seconds?

Drill Review

  • A hard whipping by the master sets up the drill.
  • Cane her chest to solicit reflections on the principles of the hypothesis, identity, reactance, and past associations of submission.

Review By Committee

  • Social anthropologist Gayle Rubins co-founded the historic Samois group and fought the Feminist Sex Wars of the 80’s to defend the right to engage in the very activity our subject is now thoroughly enjoying. Role woman?

Job Interview, Pt 1

  • Toilet Attendant, ass eating and piss play
  • Collect on the debt and payment Madison’s participation with 5 minutes of 178’s tongue up her ass.
  • Assess this applicant’s potential for satisfying the most copious pissers in the building and a possible future with the House.

Self Assessment Under Duress

  • How far can one push themself?
  • Are you giving yourself as a commodity to use?
  • An entity of slavehood: number 178.
  • Identify this commodity: what are you, who are you? How can you give it up if you don’t know what it is?

  • Without identity we have confusion, turmoil and pain: where you are now.
  • Every seven years we grow, do we give it up or adapt?

Assignment

  • Write a user’s manual:
  • what works, what does not work, what you are good at, where your weaknesses lie. A blueprint of what 178 is.







Direct Assessment
Subject Id: #027
Session Id: #5724

General

  • Subject has reached a physical plateau and is exploring the psychological aspects of BDSM.

Entitlement

  • She seems sure that she is a great fuck and that should be enough to get her by. There is some level of entitlement there, some arrogance to manage.

Rage

  • Once in a scene she is quick to flash anger. There is a searing quality under the surface.

Crying

  • Subject really enjoys crying. Relates that she cries about 50% of the time in scenes.

Hypothesis

  • When dominated in an s/m scene, she is quick to reach rage. Intimidated, most people back away from it leaving the scene at that level. When pushed past rage, she says that she ‘shuts down’ and becomes non-responsive.
  • If pushed past rage and steered through that territory, she will tap a spring of knowing and well being to quench her driving thirst for the ‘hidden knowledge’ of BDSM.
Training Goal

  • Rage Scene: To drive her past the stage of RAGE and through the territory that lies beyond the crest of her experience.

Rule Set

  • 1. Enter and exit basement areas on all fours
  • 2. Ask to do Anything inc. bathroom
  • 3. Moved by hair
  • 4. Use of Sir

Subject’s Motivation

  • Wants to learn to ‘let go’

How To Punish

  • Over the knee, nude handed whiping
  • Something having to do with dirt / filth

How To Reward

  • Hard sex
  • Squirting
  • Physical attentions, petting
  • Fisting if she is very good

Best Way To Orgasm

  • HARD SEX anyway she can get it.
  • Fisting is her favorite
  • Squirting if she is really good.







Direct Assessment
Subject Id: #027
Session Id: #5724

General

  • Subject has reached a physical plateau and is exploring the psychological aspects of BDSM.

Entitlement

  • She seems sure that she is a great fuck and that should be enough to get her by. There is some level of entitlement there, some arrogance to manage.

Rage

  • Once in a scene she is quick to flash anger. There is a searing quality under the surface.

Crying

  • Subject really enjoys crying. Relates that she cries about 50% of the time in scenes.

Hypothesis

  • When dominated in an s/m scene, she is quick to reach rage. Intimidated, most people back away from it leaving the scene at that level. When pushed past rage, she says that she ‘shuts down’ and becomes non-responsive.
  • If pushed past rage and steered through that territory, she will tap a spring of knowing and well being to quench her driving thirst for the ‘hidden knowledge’ of BDSM.
Training Goal

  • Rage Scene: To drive her past the stage of RAGE and through the territory that lies beyond the crest of her experience.

Rule Set

  • 1. Enter and exit basement areas on all fours
  • 2. Ask to do Anything inc. bathroom
  • 3. Moved by hair
  • 4. Use of Sir

Subject’s Motivation

  • Wants to learn to ‘let go’

How To Punish

  • Over the knee, naked handed spanking
  • Something having to do with dirt / filth

How To Reward

  • Hard sex
  • Squirting
  • Physical attentions, petting
  • Fisting if she is very good

Best Way To Climax

  • HARD SEX anyway she can get it.
  • Fisting is her favorite
  • Squirting if she is really good.







Training Profile
Subject Id: #113
Session Id: #5744

Stats

  • Age: 23
  • Measurements: 32a-24-35
  • Height: 5’7
  • Weight: 110
  • Breasts: real
  • Current status: collared

History

  • ‘Interested in BDSM and specifically being submissive for as long as I can remember’.
  • Dealt with a period of typical repression of kink urges.
  • Began inquiry into the lifestyle through various avenues leading to emergence apx. three years ago.
  • Engaged in 24/7 live in status 1.5 years ago.

Limits

  • No scenes involving cigarettes.
  • No heavy physical exertion through cardio activities enjoy running.
  • SuffersTMJ and the status of jaw varies from day to day.

Likes

  • Deep thuddy pain – Heavy floggings
  • Breath play
  • Electricity
  • Caning
  • Objectification
  • Verbal Praise
  • Sucking cock
  • Being fucked, anally or vaginally

Other

  • Self reports well regarding delectation and pain and levels of arousal.
Strengths

  • Pain bitch slave that orgasms from pain

Weaknesses

  • Poor performance at household maintenance.
  • A tendency to regress to a dissociative state when having difficulty completing assigned tasks or under going activities she does not find enjoyable.

Pain Management

  • Excellent.

Marking

  • non-issue

Issues

  • Low self worth, does not tend to see what she does as valuable.
  • ‘I think the quality of the service i provide will increase as i strive to take more pride in it ‘

Sexuality

  • She is overall an exhibitionist, and has a very high sex drive

Climax

  • Trained to orgasm on verbal command when in subspace.
  • She will not climax until given permission, and does not beg for climax unless given permission.

Quotes

  • I am willing to put all i have into it and let you be my guide for the next week even if it means taking a deep breath and a tiny step forward on my trust issues.’







Training Profile
Subject Id: #113
Session Id: #5744

Stats

  • Age: 23
  • Measurements: 32a-24-35
  • Height: 5’7
  • Weight: 110
  • Breasts: real
  • Current status: collared

History

  • ‘Interested in BDSM and specifically being submissive for as long as I can remember’.
  • Dealt with a period of typical repression of kink urges.
  • Began inquiry into the lifestyle through various avenues leading to emergence apx. three years ago.
  • Engaged in 24/7 live in status 1.5 years ago.

Limits

  • No scenes involving cigarettes.
  • No heavy physical exertion through cardio activities like running.
  • SuffersTMJ and the status of jaw varies from day to day.

Loves

  • Deep thuddy pain – Heavy floggings
  • Breath play
  • Electricity
  • Caning
  • Objectification
  • Verbal Praise
  • Sucking cock
  • Being fucked, anally or vaginally

Other

  • Self reports well regarding pleasure and pain and levels of arousal.
Strengths

  • Pain chick slave that orgasms from pain

Weaknesses

  • Poor performance at household maintenance.
  • A tendency to regress to a dissociative state when having difficulty completing assigned tasks or under going activities she does not find enjoyable.

Pain Management

  • Excellent.

Marking

  • non-issue

Issues

  • Low self worth, does not tend to see what she does as valuable.
  • ‘I think the quality of the service i provide will increase as i strive to take more pride in it ‘

Sexuality

  • She is overall an exhibitionist, and has a very high sex drive

Orgasm

  • Trained to climax on verbal command when in subspace.
  • She will not orgasm while given permission, and does not beg for orgasm unless given permission.

Quotes

  • I am willing to put all i have into it and let you be my guide for the next week even if it means taking a deep breath and a tiny step forward on my trust issues.’